Terence
- I feel as if he doesn’t want me with him
- He doesn’t talk to me like a friend when i visit pca
- All he says is hi
- He is basically acting like Cecilia from time to time does to me
- Just acting mean like not wanting that particular person there
- I really love him, but does he
- All the time that i’ve spend with him
- He actually hasn’t told me one thing about himself
- It took me so long to actually find out where he lived
- And he wasn’t the one who told me
- I just wanted to know just out of curiosity
- But still he is someone i don’t want to lose
- I still think of him as my friend
- One thing that really hurt was when it was nearing the time of his birthday of grade 9
- Alison was planning movie party
- She didn’t invite me
- They watch hsm 3
- Terence knew how much i wanted to watch
- He knew a long time before his birthday
- He knew that they were gonna watch it
- But he didn’t invite me or ask me
- He just left me without telling me a single thing
- I hang out with him more than most people that were invited
- Yet still i was at my house while they were so close
- The second time was my own birthday
- When he didn’t come
- He said on the phone that he had to do something with his sister
- I spent so much on my birthday
- My birthday was not how i planned it to be
- It fell and rose a bit
- But not enough to heal the damage of my heart
- At least some of friends were there
- I missed Terence at pca. I pca itself
- but i still love his kindness though he does not show it, but i really am sorry for leaving pca
Charis
- She is my love
- Though she might not feel the same way
- But i will certainly always love her
- I wasn’t sure and i’m still not sure if she’s with Adrian
- But i can’t interfere
- I shouldn’t
- I don’t really like breakups
- So i pray for their unity
- Its not good for me to wish for them to break up its not right
- She’s similar to my conditions
- But she’s much better than i am
- She is so wonderful
- Better at than me at everything
- Shes the only person i can talk to fully about my personal life
- I love her
Sarah
- When sarah said she did not like pca i was shocked
- Because pca is where we met it was our past
- It is where the past seems alive
- She was one of four, me, jasmine, Amanda, and her of course
- After jasmine left everything fell apart
- They neglected me
- They made a new friend Olivia
- It was hard time but they accepted me in time
- I kind of miss the old days
- I’ve always missed jasmine
- But we grew apart
- I used to love her, i still do but not in the same way
- I wondered why she didn’t go to church
Cecilia- when she is with her friends i feel as if she neglects
- but when she is with me alone other than parents and family
- on the most case she is like a very good friend
- she would be my charis when not with her friends and terence when with her friends
Growing up, I used to think everyone that has come into my life shouldn't go out of it. I wanted to be everyone's friend - I wanted everyone to be my friend.
ReplyDeleteThe really crappy thing about life is that everyone is gonna come and go, people are gonna grow up ... and maybe that's why so many people want to stay as kids, things were so simple. People judged a little less, and everyone was your friend as long as you shared.
Talk to the people individually about your concerns. If they change for the betterment of your friendship, great. If they don't, their loss.
Stay strong, God always provides