some pondering thoughts

whenever i cry, i just feel pain at my heart. i have cried a lot in the past.in a lot of ways crying is a way of healing for the heart. people say boys and men shouldn't cry, but what is really wrong with crying. there really isn't. if one does not cry it means they are holding back their emotions making them almost not human. why is it that girls get to cry and guys can't. why is it that a girl can hit a guy making it almost okay whereas for a guy to hit a girl it is the most terrible act ever. recently my sister's friend and his brother, from what i heard, committed suicide. its the first person whom i have met before that has died in my life. never really experienced the death of person who i know. what's even more painful the person had the same name as me. and the people who have the same name as me that i know, i feel a connection to them and those that are older than me, i look up to them and wish that i knew them better. when i heard them, i went to a basement and sort of cried in prayer for them because its really painful especially if you don't know if they have encountered jesus yet. i wish they could be given another chance at life to life for Jesus. may they rest in peace and i give my condolences. i hope that they are in heaven..i reeally hope they are in heaven.