at this point

at this point, I would really wish my sister never came back from university.
judging me everyday by each and everything i do say in the present and the past.
not caring about how i feel that all her words are hurtful, that make her a jerk, that make me want to die so everything can end.
I'm always wanting to be selfless and giving to the ones I love, care about, treasure, thankful to, but all she wants is for me to be more selfish which is a complete oxymoron.
For someone who basically drifted from her faith, losing her morals, no selfcontrol, I really don't want to listen too at this point in my life because all its doing is causing me pain.

family

my family kind of well basically outright sucks. fighting everyday, there really wouldn't be a day without some kind of argument or fight to break out. i no longer live for my family. they do not treat me like a person should be treated. they always tease me about all the aspects of my life. the past that should be forgotten the repetitively bring up. the memories that they can't remember and i only i can of which they insist that they aren't real. if i were to criticize them they would die from all i have to say to them. they are jerks who only know how to ruin my life by judging me and not accepting me for who i am. hypocrites who only know how to mock and criticize others. i can't really properly live my life with them here. they don't realize the things i am, the things i've done, the talents i have, never acknowledging my important in existence. always calling each other a problem when they are practically the source of the all the family's problems.