at this point, I would really wish my sister never came back from university.
judging me everyday by each and everything i do say in the present and the past.
not caring about how i feel that all her words are hurtful, that make her a jerk, that make me want to die so everything can end.
I'm always wanting to be selfless and giving to the ones I love, care about, treasure, thankful to, but all she wants is for me to be more selfish which is a complete oxymoron.
For someone who basically drifted from her faith, losing her morals, no selfcontrol, I really don't want to listen too at this point in my life because all its doing is causing me pain.
It's not an oxymoron because one day you'll see that everything you should've done for yourself but instead gave to others was done in vain. As a family, we are looking out for you. Using our parents' money, mind you, it's not yours, to continually purchase materialistic items for others is not selfless. Think about the things that mom and dad have to do to provide for YOU not for other people.
ReplyDeleteAlso, morals and self-control are not rooted in faith. One day you'll understand that. I also have not drifted from my faith, my eyes have just opened. One day you'll understand that as well. And these are the reasons why with your mindset I disagreed with you going back to PCA.
for what this is, i was very pissed off in hk
ReplyDelete"you're eyes have opened" in my opinion, its more like you're eyes have closed. my mindset for going back to pca is different from the mindset you are thinking of, there are all sorts of reasons why the form together making me want to go back.
i get that mom and dad are looking out for me
ReplyDeletebut you technically do not really look out for me
you only look out, but not really towards me.
LOL it's funny you say that because that is quite the contrary. It's unfortunate that I will now begin to act the way you perceive me.
ReplyDeleteAgain, one day you will see why.
its not like i'm looking forward to the day i see you
ReplyDeleteor its not like i really ever see you