Doubts

i know it is really hard for all non christians or people who were once christians to really understand how to really believe in Jesus. but you just have to believe, because it doesn't make sense that there is not God because of all creation is too complex to have been created by a bang or to just appear it doesn't make sense. only a being of great power could have done all this. most atheists or non-christians can't believe in a God that lets all the bad things happen in this world. but it is the fact that some mistakes lead to better things. Though God doesn't test, but for me and should be for you a challenge for you have the will power to live through the problem and forget about because God has already forgiven you because He loves us. But the other things that terrible are all part of God's big plan for us. So just believe. i know its hard, but its the fact that every good thing that benefits you and others are because of Him. And I mean good things, not things like revenge that benefit only you.