pca

am i going to actually be able to go back? i don't know. i really want to, but me and my mom had a conversation today she was trying to push towards to staying in tss. but i was fighting but then she recommending going to unionville by doing the hard process in signing for arts in westmount then transferring to unionville arts because its the only way to get into unionville. but i was hoping all this time to be able to go back. you see pca is my life .. and my home. what's wrong with going back for my friends. they are a part of my life and i want to make more than a part of my life and no less. i don't want to lose the relationships and friends of what i have left. i am not like my sisters who have a hundred good friends that sticks with them and hangs out with them and does not leave them. (this didn't come out rite, but its just those friends that actually will notice your existence and make the most of it). all the pain from pca i would rather relive than to not have been in pca. tss and pca is the same education wise, but i feel i've got what i needed from it and ready to return. i've been regretting and regretting leaving pca. if i don't go back some of the things i love doing so much will dissappear. no actual fun music-vocal opportunities in tss, no volleyball team i can get into, no friends i can play with everyday and spend the best time, no friends that will never leave you or ignore you, no cheap food. the email julian.soaring_eagle@hotmail.com was inspired by pca. pca is the reason why isaiah 40:31 is my favourite verse. I WANT TO GO BACK. i promised my friends and my teachers miss me and told them too. i just wished we didn't have to pay because my mom kind of expressed more on that when mentioning pca "did you know it costs $9000" but i asked her before if it was okay. but i guess it isn't okay. if i wasn't going to leave, would my mom have forced me. my friend charis said that, well i forget, but she didn't support, help or comfort. she hasn't recently. there are bad and good teachers in pca as there are bad and good teachers in public schools, it evens out.

today

i feel tss just got a bit better
maybe its because i've taken my mind of it and focused more on Christmas
i just adore the happiness and the beauty that Christmas brings with it.
i shared about my conflict with tss and pca at retreat
it was really hard for me to get up there
and i couldn't stop crying over how much i missed pca comfort and friends
and i cried even more when a friend went up and talked about him trying spread christianity to u of t school
remind of me 2 people who left pca
and possible left Christ
i really wished they didn't leave
a lot of things would have been different probably
we could have become closer as friends

a choice made bad?

was it a bad idea to leave pca. maybe. i'm not sure. though i do regret a lot. i miss that comfort, the knowledge of what to expect, the true care and love from the teacher, their knowledge of the truth. when you look at my past you would wonder why i would even want to step into pca, but i don't know i just have this strong attachment to it. i would have never even thought that i would ever leave pca. and here i am now out of the pca comfort zone. not able to play volleyball, see true friends, singing my heart out ..... i actually wanted to go to unionville rather than thornhill because i actually had true friends that i loved very much there and it was closer to being in pca than thornhill is. i was recently thinking of going there next semester or next year, but it looks like i won't have a chance because the only way for me is if i sign up for the arts program in piano/violin. i really want to go back to pca. i hope...........

TC Worship

its been 3 weeks since i got into tc worship
it was an amazing things making into tc worship. every week i look forward to practice, i guess because at TSS its not that fun, its pretty bad. friends aren't really present. i guess its because i came from pca. that environment is just not there, but in tc worship since its small and everyone's devoted to God (and everyone's asian) it feel more at home for me. it would be different for a lot of different people i guess. but with asians, with Christ, with family, that's my home.

Christmas

don't you ever feel the spirit of Christmas in you. do you feel that joy in your heart as Christmas closes in. well i surely do. it feels so good. i am basically a christmas freak. Christmas is my favourite time of year. in basically christmas movies the theme the spirit of giving seems to be presents, but what non-christians don't know, but the spirit of giving comes from God. because on Christmas day, God gave ...... His One and Only Son, Jesus Christ and gave more on easter. Christmas is a time to spend quality time with friends and family (Jesus)

reflection of agape mobs

on friday, i just was not concentrated enough on what was going on in mobs. was it because i left pca or was it because of myself. but in any case, there was a lot of things i may have been wrong in, but one thing is that leaders should look into what they took in as answers and put in their opinions and put them out so people can debate because their answer is not always right. i believe that christians should not be christians because they had pier pressure, but pier pressure is one of things than can push you into the direction of Christ, but not why you are Christian. in my opinion you should never be angry, unless its sinless, but another reason because we our anger would lead to destruction which means its pointless to be angry. I remember a verse in romans where it says to not take revenge, but let God do it because it is His to revenge (it kind of sounds like its his responsibility or duty)

notes and thoughts from AGAPE mobs and TC Worship

Trying our best to live a life for God
Striving to be perfect like Jesus
Fight sin and just LOVE
Love is life, love is God
We give our worship He gives us the Word
Applying God’s word to daily life
Our goal in life is to serve daily for Him, which means Worship is our life (it is also our Faith and devotion, which is commitment, to Him)
At mobs they say that people become Christians by pier pressure, but I feel it really isn’t because of that. Pier pressure is doing what other people are doing for that reason, but being Christian isn’t supposed to always be like. God has a plan for us with Jesus, if He wanted He could have put us in a totally different world and still lead us to Jesus. Pier pressure is supposed to motivate, but it is not the reason for coming to Christ.
Coming together as one to worship Jesus and the Father. To help us get into motion of getting deeper into worshiping God. (Sunday school answer) to be good examples and bring people in the audience to Christ.
Praise/Music Team not worship team because we are all in ONE worship team
Not religious studies, its the Bible, Christianity, and Faith.